March 2012
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And more wearing pants that were once too tight :)...
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wearing a pair of pants that were too tight to...
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For my future husband
Yes I’m going to start doing this. I’ve never been vocal about what I want or don’t want in a husband and I think it’s time I start.
First things first. This has been on my mind for a while. There was a long time in my life where no one would stand up for me. I want a husband who will be my protector. Someone who will stand up for me and support me in the good times and...
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That awkward moment when you have to explain to your complete stranger health professor that you couldn’t take the body composition test, which is a part of your grade, because your body image issues and past experiences made you feel sick to your stomach at the thought of even going there. Because you were too scared if being called fat again.
First World Problems
My backpack full out busted on me today, like the zippers both broke before my second of three classes so I had to walk around like a dork all day awkwardly holding it closed with one arm while I walked across campus to class.
BUT, my nice beautiful blue north face borealis backpack had been ordered and I’ll have it by next week. I was already wanting a new one for this summer when I go to...
I was supposed to go get a skin fold body composition test done for a class I’m in. I was terrified from the beginning but my friend who is taller than me and slimmer went and got tested and they told her she was obese. I know it was probably wrong because she is definitely not obese but I can’t make myself go.
I can’t handle it. Thinking about it makes me sick. Even knowing it...
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I seriously can't handle how happy I am right now!
My summer is just falling into place so perfectly! Here it is
Zimbabwe for two weeks- I exceeded my fundraising goal last week! This trip has just set my heart on fire. I can’t wait!
Working at my old Girl Scout camp for most of the rest of summer- I spent 12 wonderful summers there as a camper and a counselor while I was in elementary and high school. After my senior year all of the...
Some lovely NSV surprises
I’m wearing this pair of black shorts I got this time last year today. I haven’t worn them since early last semester and I’m not actually clear if I even wore them then because I gained over the summer and I wasn’t confident enough with my body to wear a lot of things. I was only a ten pound gain but it bothered me after all of my hard work. I wasn’t in complete...
“she may be young but she only likes old things
& modern music it ain’t to...”
– Monday Morning, Death Cab for Cutie (via wide-eyes-and-paper-crowns)
Going to see the Hunger Games at midnight!
How did this happen? I definitely said I wasn’t going to see it till I read the book. But in my current situation of being unable to read anything I ever want to due to school work it looks like I won’t be reading it till I’m in a nursing home. yeahh…..
Well I’m excited!
Times like this my regret for the way I treated myself in high school runs deep. I am starving but I didn’t want to eat. Automatically tried to rationalize myself out of getting breakfast but right now I am forcing myself to eat some apple sauce and that there is a win for today. Gets easier with each spoonful.
“Your body can`t shine on the outside unless it is healthy on the inside.”
– Miranda Kerr (via journeytoabetterself)
gramblin-deactivated20120706 asked: How tall are you?!
about to get some serious homework done...
Welcome new followers
So I got a lot of new followers due to posting my weight loss before and after today. I just wanted to say welcome to my world and to give you a warning.
This blog will have things to do with my weight loss because that is a huge part of my story but this is also my personal blog so I write about almost everything here. I’m not a strictly weight loss blog.
so anyway, thanks for...
aaahellno asked: congrats girl on the weight loss
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So a few weeks ago I met this really sweet, really cute, good christian, guy. I thought he was cute and my friends thought we would be cute together. The way I reacted to this situation has shown me a lot about myself and I can’t say I’m exactly happy with it.
Here is where things might get confusing. I’m going to separate what my brain says from what is actually true because...
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What just happened, I mean really? I’m so confused! Nothing makes sense! Someone explain
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Somehow I’m even more confused than before!
Watching Pretty title liars A day with my best...
Waaaaah!
mikeclevenger:
If our poor die of hunger, it is not because God does not care for them. Rather, it is because neither you nor I are generous enough. It is because we are not instruments of love in the hands of God. We do not recognize Christ when once again he appears to us in the hungry man, in the lonely woman, in the child who is looking for a place to get warm.
-Mother Teresa
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Today is a good day because I officially have all...
And I’ve been told more money is on the way so now I can use that to help my other friends out in their fundraising!
Praise the lord!
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“In the middle of the night, all this light- David Crowder Band, All This Glory”
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never too busy
I’ve got a huge amount of work to get done for school but I know I need to make time for my own well being. I’m trying to make time lately for devotion and exercise. mostly the first but the second is important as well and what this particular post is about.
I devised a little workout for myself that takes half an hour and that I can do in my dorm.
2 minute run in place
50 sit...
“The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise, as some understand slowness....”
– 2 Peter 3:9 (via christianakimx3)
I really have a lot of homework to do but I just couldn’t get myself to focus on it. My head still hurts a little and I’m just too tired to make sense of it.
Going to do a few things and go to sleep around midnight or so.
- finish uploading vacation pics
- read a little
- do a really nice devotion. I just need this. I did really well this week and my heart feels better for it. I...
I’ve been eating aweful food all week and I just really think I need to eat as cleanly as possible this week to reset. I feel icky and groggy and my head has hurt for most of the day. I almost threw up today on the car ride home from Florida because I felt so awful. I don’t know if it was car sickness or what. I felt nauseous and my head hurt the whole way home. I had a pack of peanut...
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Sometimes it is just really nice to turn off my...
After the Storm
talean-bean:
And there will come a time, you’ll see, with no more tears. And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears. Get over your hill and see what you find there, With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.
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A praise
A few weeks ago I blogged about the fact that I can’t deal with short jokes. I mentioned a certain person in my life who just wouldn’t let up with the jokes no matter how much I asked.
Well, today I’m glad to say I have an update on that story.
My best friend and I are getting an apartment together next year and are in the process of getting furniture for it. We found a nice...
My best friend is being kind of optimistic about this. But I just can’t bring myself to be. I can’t stop thinking that the moment when this will all explode is right around the corner.
My cousins are obsessed with watching these old loony toons cartoons my aunt and uncle brought to the beach house. I have loved being with them this week because I’ve been reminded how wonderful it is to just enjoy the simple things. Sand castles, fishing, sunshine, old cartoons, cuddles with family. I’ve had such a good time this week.
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Going to finish this essay and go outside to sit...
This is peace
While I’m at the beach house with my family I am, by my own choice, sleeping with my 7, 11, and 14 year old cousins in a big room. My sweet little cousin Luci, the seven year old, is sharing the bed with me. This morning I woke up but didn’t open my eyes I just sort of sat around. When The kids started to get up Luci saw me and thought I was still asleep. She looked at me and...
I may be a fool for allowing myself to start...
rebekahlc:
werethecure:
Its the optimist deep inside me coming out
this.
Yep
wide-eyes-and-paper-crowns asked: same here. my kids at work are tired of being inside.
