April 2012
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“You can say that it’s ridiculous to believe that there’s a God, but I can turn...”
– (via adjustaccordingly)
Who knew I would be this upset about leaving.
I feel like a little child throwing a tantrum saying “I don’t wanna!”
But I don’t wanna go home. I just want to be here with my friends forever. But going home is what we all need. It’s like a reset button. I just hate that I’m so far away from everyone else. I feel a lot of weekend trips to see my friends on the coast coming.
“Put your past away if your gonna dance today. It all starts with the music in...”
– The Fondren District- Red Hill City
“Just when it seems I’m at my best the demons find me, they won’t let...”
– The Fondren District- Red Hill City
“And there’s nothing quite as freeing, nothing quite as dear to me as the...”
– The Fondren District, Red Hill City
I just want to know where your mind goes when it...
Watching my new tiedye shirt get washed. The...
I’m so easily amused!
Officially a counselor for the summer!
I went and spoke with the camp director of my camp today and I’m officially hired!
She told me that our staff shirts are going probably going to be white and we’re going to tie-dye them. Oh my camp heart is so happy! :)
I wish the violin professor would email me back...
I emailed her a week ago about wanting to take lessons next semester. I might have to just try someone else.
I’m going to do this though. I’m doing it and not telling dad. I’m only going to take a 30 minute a week class. No more two hour classes where I’m never good enough. No more dad telling me I need to do this, need to do that.
I need to reclaim the part of my heart...
I'm back to update
For those of you who were worried, I am doing a lot better now. I’ve talked to my friends, reached out like I said I would. The world did not stop spinning, contrary to what I thought. It’s actually fine. Getting better each day.
And let me mention how happy thinking about summer is making me right now. Two other former camp friends have decided to re-apply for this...
Going to be away from tumblr for a little while.
Sometimes I get so in my head that I don’t feel like I’ll ever get out. I convince myself that I’m replaceable, unwanted, and worthless and I let my thoughts spiral out of control. It isn’t something that has just started happening recently it’s something that’s been this way since I was in middle school.
Working out things through this medium has been helpful...
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These past few days I just haven’t felt like myself. I can feel the negativity weighing down my chest like a pile of bricks on my heart. It hasn’t been bad like this in a while. I guess it likes to creep up on me like this. I don’t know why I think saying those words out loud will help. I’ve never told my story in full out loud. I don’t even know if I’ve written...
youreonmyrunway asked: In reply to Forever and Always. I'm the exact same. My childhood rink is closed. Uni makes it impossible to get to the nearest one and I no longer have the money to spend. But I will always be a figure skater. And I've got the scars to prove it! :D x
I just want to stop thinking like this. I want to...
Naivety would be better than this. Anything would be better than this. It’s making me sick.
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Today has just been one of those days when the negative creeps in on me. I need to be alone and relax but at the same time I need to be around people because it’s easier if I can distract myself. I’m about to be at work. Maybe that’ll do the trick.
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Forever and always
We whine and complain about the long lessons repeating moves over and over until they’re perfect, the bruises that never seem to fade, the embarrassing moments when we step on the ice with our guards still on and fall, without any grace at all, to the ground. We get off that ice swearing we were stupid to ever do this to ourselves and that, if we had any sense, we would stop now and never...
I'm just really happy right now!
Because I know what’s going to happen tomorrow and I’m just really anxious and excited for it! It’s going to be the busiest day ever but totally worth it in every possible way!
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Let me tell you how excited I am to wear this new...
When did I become such a girly girl? Whatever, I’m loving it :)
A lady at sams wouldn’t give me a sample today because she thought I looked like a child who needed a parent’s permission. So yeah. I just told the lady that I was 20, took my sample, and left.
But that’s not saying it didn’t bring out all my fears all over again. I know she didn’t mean anything by it. You can tell me that all you want and it won’t change a...
I just want to get back to school right now. I...
“Who, being loved, is poor?”
– Oscar Wilde (via erosboros)
New outfits are too fun
I got the cutest outfit at target last night and I’m wearing it today. It’s so simple and confortable. Just a skirt and a tank. The colors kind of remind me of a neopolitan ice cream bar but with orange instead of strawberry.
My cousins are coming over to grill burgers and hang out tonight and dad and I are going to some thrift stores to look for apartment things. This is the perfect...
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uhg. TEETH.
I can feel my the wisdom tooth on the right side of my mouth coming in. It was just tender earlier this week but just now it started to hurt a little. Looks like I’ll be going to the dentist soon.
This bothers me because my dentist told me they probably wouldn’t come in and if they did they wouldn’t be a bother but there’s definitely not room for them to come in correctly...
4:00 tomorrow I will be driving home with windows...
I haven’t been home in two months. I kept telling my roomie I just wanted to stay in bed and cuddle my cads all weekend. I don’t care how lame that makes me sound.
I want to tell it all but I don't know where to...
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Speech done!
I gave my speech today! It was so much better than last time. I asked my best friend to pray for me and she really came through and I could feel it. I was praying too and I kept just imagining God by my side, calming me. I kept telling myself that I was just teaching because God has given me the gift of not being afriad to speak when it involves me teaching. Another reason I know I’m meant...
Guess who has some pretty bad communication...
This girl!
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Interviewing for Camp tomorrow
It’s seriously strange feeling to have to interview for a position as a counselor at the camp I grew up with and have worked at for two years previously. This camp was and is a huge part of my life but none of the same people who were in charge when I was there are there now. Strange how things change in two years. I just hope this goes well.
